"All great changes are preceded by chaos." - Deepak Chopra
"Opportunities to find deeper power within ourselves come when life seems most challenging." – Joseph Campbell
"We were made to cooperate and connect, not to compete." – Lynne McTaggart
"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment."
- Ralph Waldo Emerson
“Bloom where you are planted.” - Mary Engelbreit
Awhile back, I had ONE OF THOSE MORNINGS! You know the kind. After a cruddy, fitful sleep, filled with dreams about rats with painted on eyebrows and guest bathrooms that nobody ever cleans, I woke up late, achy, and in no mood to deal with anyone's crap. EVERYTHING was wrong and pissing me off.....and I hadn't even gotten out of bed yet!
A couple of nights ago, I had one of those Eureka moments. See, I've worked on uncovering my Core Desired Feelings for about a year or so now, and I was pretty confident I finally had all of them nailed down. There were a couple that I KNEW from the start, and a couple that I tried on for size for a while, until I realized they didn't quite resonate. That's the way the Desire Mapping process unfolded for me personally.
Eventually, the feelings that really clicked were: Connection, Abundance, Shakti (divine, feminine creative power) & Easy Freedom (cause in my mind....there IS such a thing as freedom that doesn't feel easy).
Yep! Got it! THOSE are the feelings I desire. Next step....start making decisions and directing my life in such a way that leads me to those feelings as often as possible. Check!
This process has been a total game changer for me. Like, TOTAL.
There was a time when I used to base my happiness and success on how things in my life outwardly appeared in comparison to other people. I would look at friends, family members, class mates, co-workers, acquaintances and sometimes even complete strangers and think, "OMG...they have it SO much more together than I do! They make more money, have more fun, live in bigger houses, go on regular vacations with their partner, have children who clean up after themselves, consistently look like they have a personal wardrobe assistant and..... their roots are NEVER showing!! Why am I such a freaking hot mess in comparison?"
Last week I wrote a post about my experience at the World Domination Summit, many of the key lessons I learned there, and how thankful I am that I made that investment in myself. I also mentioned that the reason I even ended up there in the first place, was because of a course I took with Scott Dinsmore called, How To Connect With Anyone. I just love how one good thing leads to another :) I've been doing a lot of reflecting on all of this, and decided that I needed to do a bit of a prequel for you. You know, like when they make a movie and then later, they decide they need to tell the back-story in a little more detail. Think 'Star Wars: The Phantom Menace' (Return of the Jedi), or 'Puss in Boots' (Shrek 2). You see, I realized that the events leading up to me attending WDS and having the experience of a lifetime, actually all started the moment I decided to sign up for an online course I knew nothing about. Just like I wrote about last week, I took Imperfect Action, even though I had no idea what the end result would be.
Rewind about 18 months from today....
On July 10th, I stepped WAY outside my comfort zone and travelled by myself, to Portland Oregon, to attend a 'conference' (I use that term very loosely), called The World Domination Summit (WDS for short). This is a yearly gathering of more than 2 500 like-minded/hearted people from across the globe. It's the brain child of an incredibly humble, yet outstanding human being named, Chris Guillebeau. The whole event is centred on the question: 'How do we live a remarkable life in a conventional world?' Bloody good question eh? The three core values of this gathering are: Community, Adventure & Service. Everything that happens in conjunction with WDS, speaks to these.
While there, I met up with some soul sisters, made a ton of new friends, learned from a bunch of incredibly inspiring speakers, became a superhero, got to meet some people I really admire, attended an opening night party which featured a circus, and the closing night festivities which featured hot air balloon rides, a rock orchestra and a Bollywood dance party. Aside from that, there were the endless food trucks, a river cruise, an encounter with a shaman, fun meet-ups all over town, and surprises around every corner. Oh.....and incidentally, I am now a world record holder (well, me and 807 of my new friends). No guff.
Do you know what you want out of life? I mean do you REALLY know? I used to think I did. I had gone to school, gotten a few degrees, held a variety of decent jobs, and eventually a good career in teaching. I had a bunch of friends, a solid relationship, a house, a dog, eventually two kids, etc, etc. Basically, I was on my way to having all the 'trappings' of a pretty standard, so called 'successful' life.
Then I discovered that chasing after what I wanted, or at least what I thought I wanted, or even more accurately, what society said I should want, was not making me happy. In fact, at a certain point, I realized that I was waaaaaay off course. I started trying to figure out how this could be. I had done all the right things. School, jobs, mortgages, marriage, kids. I was a responsible adult dammit! I HAD to be happy. But somehow, I just couldn't shake the feeling that something wasn't quite right. I was parading around in my best polyester pants and heels, just like all the other professional women....but I felt like I was wearing a COSTUME. This was a persona, this was NOT who I was. In fact, this is NEVER who I intended to be! I found myself wondering, "What the hell happened here?"